Stuff you didn't want to know
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snoweeThis is a variation on a psychological exercise that I found interesting. You're supposed to make statements about yourself, then add ammendments to make them specific. I tried to be honest and even say things I wouldn’t normally share, but it’s supposed to be freeing and make one more self-aware and self-confident.
Because of this, there may be a few intimate details. Be sure you don't care about hearing them before entering.
100 incredibly dull but somewhat specific things about me:
This is a variation on a psychological exercise that I found interesting. I tried to be honest and even say things I wouldn’t normally share, but it’s supposed to be freeing…
1. I got my first tattoo when I was 18 and wanted another before the year was out
2. I am 27 and often feel old
3. I hate being called “girly girl”, but I sometimes do girly things
4. I despise commitment and repetition, which is why I have always been shocked that I committed to marriage and now to raising a child
5. I am pretty, but I don’t fit the mold
6. I am strong, but I cry
7. I am determined, but can also give in
8. I love the snow, but always fall asleep when it rains
9. I read textbooks for fun because a lot of fiction bores me
10. A lot of fiction recommendations have recently proven me wrong
11. I love animals but I only have cats
12. I hate math, but am good at it and love to do things like taxes and take math classes
13. I am celeb-phobic in that I don’t like being like them, have little interest in meeting them (except to spill a drink on one for my “before 30” goals list), and I do not want to be one
14. I crave creativity and cleverness I do not possess
15. I like to be called crazy (or any synonym) but I refuse to own up to it
16. I do not sleep well on a normal schedule. When I went to bed at 4am, I needed 7-8 hours of sleep. When I have to be up at 7 for Toria, I have to allow 9-10 hours of sleep time
17. I have always wanted to name my children (yes, the ones I really didn’t want so I named characters in books after them instead) Victoria, Jane, Alexandra, Elizabeth, Isabella, Katherine (all Queens, you’ll note), Kakiya Leigh, or Ambrose Alexander. Instead I threw three at my poor child and named her Victoria Jane Alexandra, but the women she was named after were all strong, interesting rulers
18. I was born in the year of the rabbit and am a Taurus, but find the definitions of these things mostly contradictory to who I am
19. I tend to agree or say things I don’t truly believe and I’m not always certain why
20. I despise watches and use a datebook only out of absolute necessity
21. Prozac made me lethargic and completely destroyed my short term memory, not the marijuana I started using 4 years later
22. I went to college, but haven’t yet finished
23. When I was away at college I drank too much
24. Occasionally I smoke too much, but I am also very good at quitting for long periods of time
25. I sometimes like to share too much information such as I enjoy pain during sex, but my husband does not
26. My husband must be very patient to stay with me because I am confusing, demanding, and he knows most (if not all) of my weaknesses
27. I despise SPAM. That is all
28. I value friendships; sometimes too much and other times not enough
29. I do not like to conform, but sometimes don’t notice when I’m doing it
30. I don’t think anything is evil, only socially acceptable or not – and society doesn’t know any better
31. I like to laugh, cry and be angry because it reminds me that I can feel
32. I like bad times so I know what a good time is when I see it
33. I like to savour every moment and try new things as often as possible and cannot comprehend those who do not
34. I try to be honest, but will sometimes catch myself lying
35. I despise questions about my sexual orientation, but certainly not because I am afraid of not being accepted. I do not know why
36. I am clumsy and do a lot of really stupid things, but I try not to dwell
37. I forgive and forget easily which possibly makes me nonchalant about being overly honest or saying the wrong things because most people will not forgive as easily
38. I get turned on by office supplies, boots, pain, music, blood, anal sex, S&M. serial killers, single engine airplanes, and these are the less bizarre fetishes, but I am not turned on by leather, celebrities, fluffy fantasies, or domination
39. I adore art, architecture, music, literature, photography – all artistic avenues – and history, but I do not like to sound pretentious and I yearn to be better at them
40. I desire experience, but don’t like to get out much
41. I usually end up at gay bars because in Pocatello it was the only place that didn't play country music (I am not exaggerating) and in Utah it’s the only place that feels like a bar should feel (devoid of prissy, semi-conservative, boring older people)
42. I try not to be judgmental, but sometimes it’s hard not to be. Either way, I rarely judge by first impressions
43. I like the idea of karma, but I do not ask karma why bad things happen to me
44. I like the idea of heaven/hell/god/devil, but I prefer to live by a policy of what makes me happy as long as it doesn’t hurt others
45. I believe accepting consequences for your actions is the only truly tangible belief
46. I believe some people have it harder than I do, but some people also have it easier.
47. I believe some people are more talented than I, but also that some people are less talented
48. Those two reasons are why I try diligently not to compare myself to others
49. I sometimes live a bit too much in the moment, but I like to analyze myself and others
50. I am a skilled procrastinator, but I am not proud of it
51. I love calla lilies, white lilies, oriental (black & red) poppies, white roses, yellow roses, and 2 tone roses equally, but I’m also fond of white daisies, other roses (especially those I’ve grown myself), sunflowers, and flowers that are considered weeds (wild flowers, dandelions, morning glory)
52. A lot of things I do, say, and write are more intentional that one might think
53. I am the youngest of 7 children which means I got spoiled by my parents, but was the butt of my 6 other siblings’ jokes and occasionally their anger
54. When I was 6, my father – a drywaller – fell and I have grown up with a father who suffers from severe head trauma
55. I am possessive about things that are mine, but I do know how to share
56. I love to give and give and give. It warms my heart more than receiving
57. I believe it is the thought that counts
58. I do not like to collect things, but have somehow acquired a few collections of things
59. I play several instruments, but I do not ever seem to find time to practice anymore
60. I have good vision and good health, but I should exercise more
61. I love movies, but I hate theaters
62. I think all of my friends are beautiful, but sometimes others do not agree
63. I have very strong opinions, but I do not force them on others. In fact, I rarely make others listen to my strong opinions
64. Most of the time, I feel like I’m more that one person struggling for answers
65. I’m not a psychopath or a sociopath, nor do I suffer from multiple personalities or schizophrenia, but I do have internal conversations (occasionally external) with myself and I recognize several “personalities” inside of me. Some are characters I write, others are just my mind seeing all sides to every issue
66. I hated every underling job I had, but I also cannot decide on a career because it seems so final
67. I despise pop-ups. That is all
68. I am at 68 and am at a loss for more. I must be terribly dull
69. I did not go to my 5 year class reunion and I don’t know if I will go to my quickly approaching 10 year reunion, but I do know that many of my friends have become more conservative and I have become more liberal so I wonder just what would happen if I met up with old friends again. I cannot help wondering what happened to friends I lost touch with
70. I have hurt myself badly in the past and still do occasionally, but the reason for hurting myself and the results have changed greatly. I used to hurt myself and talk about it/let others find out about it for attention, pity, or self-loathing.
71. I am afraid of myself at times because when I lose my temper, I become extremely violent, but I rarely hurt others physically or verbally on even the worst rampage. I have hurt others verbally, but it has never been intentional
72. I used to get bullied terribly – all throughout my school years – but I also beat up 2 kids in elementary school
73. I believe in love and the healing powers of it, but I’m not very good at understanding it, doing it, or recognizing it in my life
74. I love to be surprised and will often play dumb just so I can be more surprised
75. I’d like to be published, but secretly hope for a small understanding audience rather than a glam, trendy, best-selling one
76. I did not know until about a year ago when hubby told me that I suddenly acquire a British accent when I am mad. (It must have something to do with my mother)
77. I do not feel like I have changed much in my life, but I do feel like I outwardly display who I am more than I ever did as a teen or in my early twenties
78. I like living in Utah because I know where all the good stuff is and I can’t see how any place could necessarily be so much better just because they allow higher alcohol content and have a lower smoking age, but I would still like to live other places just to experience them
79. Physical touch is very important to me, but I was raised without it so I still have a hard time accepting it
80. I will probably regret the level of intimacy I’m giving out free here, but I will also learn to be more accepting of myself
81. I have a hard time accepting myself, but I know I am worth loving
82. I know how to sew and do it pretty well, but I do not have the time or drive to do it right now even though I have projects waiting
83. I spend money when I am depressed which is absolutely no good to our budget
84. I get irritated by people who cannot spell, who push their opinions on others, or who judge others based on outward appearances, but I never say anything about it
85. I don’t like to speak unless I can be clever or profound and since I have trouble being either, I tend to be quiet and appear shy or snobbish
86. My daughter is beautiful, smart, and important to me, but it will always be bittersweet because I know that she is not biologically mine
87. I find it impossible not to be insecure
88. I like soft things and pretty things in the same way I like dark and evil things
89. I love words like desperate, crawling, starving, clawing, and indulge
90. I hate to talk on the phone
91. I don’t like beer or regular coffee. I drink stronger alcohols and expensive coffee
92. I always need a “safe place” in my house where I can hide, where the world outside does not exist, where I can curl up and let go of everything. It’s one of the first things established every time I move
93. I can be obsessive and compulsive, but it’s only about certain things
94. I love to go for long drives, road trips where I can ponder stories or think about nothing while seeing different types of scenery
95. My favourite colour is blue. I do not like red very much, but lately it has worked its way into my life and my wardrobe more than I’d like to admit
96. I like the way I dress even if it’s outdated, eclectic, or mismatched
97. I miss my husband when he is at work, but sometimes I lie in bed with him and feel lonely
98. I am very close with my sister, but we’ve become increasingly distant. I do not think it is because I have the life she wants (wife, mother, homemaker) and she has the life I want (career, independence, nothing tying her down), but I don’t think it helps
99. Friends, family, and love are the things most important to me
100. Money, power, and fame are the things least important to me
Because of this, there may be a few intimate details. Be sure you don't care about hearing them before entering.
100 incredibly dull but somewhat specific things about me:
This is a variation on a psychological exercise that I found interesting. I tried to be honest and even say things I wouldn’t normally share, but it’s supposed to be freeing…
1. I got my first tattoo when I was 18 and wanted another before the year was out
2. I am 27 and often feel old
3. I hate being called “girly girl”, but I sometimes do girly things
4. I despise commitment and repetition, which is why I have always been shocked that I committed to marriage and now to raising a child
5. I am pretty, but I don’t fit the mold
6. I am strong, but I cry
7. I am determined, but can also give in
8. I love the snow, but always fall asleep when it rains
9. I read textbooks for fun because a lot of fiction bores me
10. A lot of fiction recommendations have recently proven me wrong
11. I love animals but I only have cats
12. I hate math, but am good at it and love to do things like taxes and take math classes
13. I am celeb-phobic in that I don’t like being like them, have little interest in meeting them (except to spill a drink on one for my “before 30” goals list), and I do not want to be one
14. I crave creativity and cleverness I do not possess
15. I like to be called crazy (or any synonym) but I refuse to own up to it
16. I do not sleep well on a normal schedule. When I went to bed at 4am, I needed 7-8 hours of sleep. When I have to be up at 7 for Toria, I have to allow 9-10 hours of sleep time
17. I have always wanted to name my children (yes, the ones I really didn’t want so I named characters in books after them instead) Victoria, Jane, Alexandra, Elizabeth, Isabella, Katherine (all Queens, you’ll note), Kakiya Leigh, or Ambrose Alexander. Instead I threw three at my poor child and named her Victoria Jane Alexandra, but the women she was named after were all strong, interesting rulers
18. I was born in the year of the rabbit and am a Taurus, but find the definitions of these things mostly contradictory to who I am
19. I tend to agree or say things I don’t truly believe and I’m not always certain why
20. I despise watches and use a datebook only out of absolute necessity
21. Prozac made me lethargic and completely destroyed my short term memory, not the marijuana I started using 4 years later
22. I went to college, but haven’t yet finished
23. When I was away at college I drank too much
24. Occasionally I smoke too much, but I am also very good at quitting for long periods of time
25. I sometimes like to share too much information such as I enjoy pain during sex, but my husband does not
26. My husband must be very patient to stay with me because I am confusing, demanding, and he knows most (if not all) of my weaknesses
27. I despise SPAM. That is all
28. I value friendships; sometimes too much and other times not enough
29. I do not like to conform, but sometimes don’t notice when I’m doing it
30. I don’t think anything is evil, only socially acceptable or not – and society doesn’t know any better
31. I like to laugh, cry and be angry because it reminds me that I can feel
32. I like bad times so I know what a good time is when I see it
33. I like to savour every moment and try new things as often as possible and cannot comprehend those who do not
34. I try to be honest, but will sometimes catch myself lying
35. I despise questions about my sexual orientation, but certainly not because I am afraid of not being accepted. I do not know why
36. I am clumsy and do a lot of really stupid things, but I try not to dwell
37. I forgive and forget easily which possibly makes me nonchalant about being overly honest or saying the wrong things because most people will not forgive as easily
38. I get turned on by office supplies, boots, pain, music, blood, anal sex, S&M. serial killers, single engine airplanes, and these are the less bizarre fetishes, but I am not turned on by leather, celebrities, fluffy fantasies, or domination
39. I adore art, architecture, music, literature, photography – all artistic avenues – and history, but I do not like to sound pretentious and I yearn to be better at them
40. I desire experience, but don’t like to get out much
41. I usually end up at gay bars because in Pocatello it was the only place that didn't play country music (I am not exaggerating) and in Utah it’s the only place that feels like a bar should feel (devoid of prissy, semi-conservative, boring older people)
42. I try not to be judgmental, but sometimes it’s hard not to be. Either way, I rarely judge by first impressions
43. I like the idea of karma, but I do not ask karma why bad things happen to me
44. I like the idea of heaven/hell/god/devil, but I prefer to live by a policy of what makes me happy as long as it doesn’t hurt others
45. I believe accepting consequences for your actions is the only truly tangible belief
46. I believe some people have it harder than I do, but some people also have it easier.
47. I believe some people are more talented than I, but also that some people are less talented
48. Those two reasons are why I try diligently not to compare myself to others
49. I sometimes live a bit too much in the moment, but I like to analyze myself and others
50. I am a skilled procrastinator, but I am not proud of it
51. I love calla lilies, white lilies, oriental (black & red) poppies, white roses, yellow roses, and 2 tone roses equally, but I’m also fond of white daisies, other roses (especially those I’ve grown myself), sunflowers, and flowers that are considered weeds (wild flowers, dandelions, morning glory)
52. A lot of things I do, say, and write are more intentional that one might think
53. I am the youngest of 7 children which means I got spoiled by my parents, but was the butt of my 6 other siblings’ jokes and occasionally their anger
54. When I was 6, my father – a drywaller – fell and I have grown up with a father who suffers from severe head trauma
55. I am possessive about things that are mine, but I do know how to share
56. I love to give and give and give. It warms my heart more than receiving
57. I believe it is the thought that counts
58. I do not like to collect things, but have somehow acquired a few collections of things
59. I play several instruments, but I do not ever seem to find time to practice anymore
60. I have good vision and good health, but I should exercise more
61. I love movies, but I hate theaters
62. I think all of my friends are beautiful, but sometimes others do not agree
63. I have very strong opinions, but I do not force them on others. In fact, I rarely make others listen to my strong opinions
64. Most of the time, I feel like I’m more that one person struggling for answers
65. I’m not a psychopath or a sociopath, nor do I suffer from multiple personalities or schizophrenia, but I do have internal conversations (occasionally external) with myself and I recognize several “personalities” inside of me. Some are characters I write, others are just my mind seeing all sides to every issue
66. I hated every underling job I had, but I also cannot decide on a career because it seems so final
67. I despise pop-ups. That is all
68. I am at 68 and am at a loss for more. I must be terribly dull
69. I did not go to my 5 year class reunion and I don’t know if I will go to my quickly approaching 10 year reunion, but I do know that many of my friends have become more conservative and I have become more liberal so I wonder just what would happen if I met up with old friends again. I cannot help wondering what happened to friends I lost touch with
70. I have hurt myself badly in the past and still do occasionally, but the reason for hurting myself and the results have changed greatly. I used to hurt myself and talk about it/let others find out about it for attention, pity, or self-loathing.
71. I am afraid of myself at times because when I lose my temper, I become extremely violent, but I rarely hurt others physically or verbally on even the worst rampage. I have hurt others verbally, but it has never been intentional
72. I used to get bullied terribly – all throughout my school years – but I also beat up 2 kids in elementary school
73. I believe in love and the healing powers of it, but I’m not very good at understanding it, doing it, or recognizing it in my life
74. I love to be surprised and will often play dumb just so I can be more surprised
75. I’d like to be published, but secretly hope for a small understanding audience rather than a glam, trendy, best-selling one
76. I did not know until about a year ago when hubby told me that I suddenly acquire a British accent when I am mad. (It must have something to do with my mother)
77. I do not feel like I have changed much in my life, but I do feel like I outwardly display who I am more than I ever did as a teen or in my early twenties
78. I like living in Utah because I know where all the good stuff is and I can’t see how any place could necessarily be so much better just because they allow higher alcohol content and have a lower smoking age, but I would still like to live other places just to experience them
79. Physical touch is very important to me, but I was raised without it so I still have a hard time accepting it
80. I will probably regret the level of intimacy I’m giving out free here, but I will also learn to be more accepting of myself
81. I have a hard time accepting myself, but I know I am worth loving
82. I know how to sew and do it pretty well, but I do not have the time or drive to do it right now even though I have projects waiting
83. I spend money when I am depressed which is absolutely no good to our budget
84. I get irritated by people who cannot spell, who push their opinions on others, or who judge others based on outward appearances, but I never say anything about it
85. I don’t like to speak unless I can be clever or profound and since I have trouble being either, I tend to be quiet and appear shy or snobbish
86. My daughter is beautiful, smart, and important to me, but it will always be bittersweet because I know that she is not biologically mine
87. I find it impossible not to be insecure
88. I like soft things and pretty things in the same way I like dark and evil things
89. I love words like desperate, crawling, starving, clawing, and indulge
90. I hate to talk on the phone
91. I don’t like beer or regular coffee. I drink stronger alcohols and expensive coffee
92. I always need a “safe place” in my house where I can hide, where the world outside does not exist, where I can curl up and let go of everything. It’s one of the first things established every time I move
93. I can be obsessive and compulsive, but it’s only about certain things
94. I love to go for long drives, road trips where I can ponder stories or think about nothing while seeing different types of scenery
95. My favourite colour is blue. I do not like red very much, but lately it has worked its way into my life and my wardrobe more than I’d like to admit
96. I like the way I dress even if it’s outdated, eclectic, or mismatched
97. I miss my husband when he is at work, but sometimes I lie in bed with him and feel lonely
98. I am very close with my sister, but we’ve become increasingly distant. I do not think it is because I have the life she wants (wife, mother, homemaker) and she has the life I want (career, independence, nothing tying her down), but I don’t think it helps
99. Friends, family, and love are the things most important to me
100. Money, power, and fame are the things least important to me
