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Jul. 13th, 2012 01:33 pmIt baffles me when I meet a person who is certain they know everything, but they never stop talking long enough to learn something.
How did they learn "everything" to begin with?
How did they learn "everything" to begin with?
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Jul. 4th, 2012 08:28 amAND ( if you feel like you just came in the middle, this is from yesterday's )
You agree with me, right? That everyone is so busy creating their own drama, no one is actually connected to anyone else anymore? I loathe using the word drama that way, but seriously folks, they drive me to it!
You agree with me, right? That everyone is so busy creating their own drama, no one is actually connected to anyone else anymore? I loathe using the word drama that way, but seriously folks, they drive me to it!
This IS my therapy.
Jul. 3rd, 2012 05:16 pmApparently, I've basically set up the last few months to fuck up my life.( Read more... )
Just nothing. Never mind.
Just nothing. Never mind.
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May. 9th, 2012 09:59 pmOriginally posted by ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
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sptmbrwind at Because LJ Can't Be Bothered To Put This Where People Can See It...Originally posted by theljstaff at Help Us Support Planned Parenthood
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theljstaff at Help Us Support Planned ParenthoodJoin us in standing up for reproductive health and education. Planned Parenthood, the organization that delivers reproductive health care, sex education and information to millions of people worldwide, has come under fire in the U.S. lately, with many politicians on both state and federal level seeking to end funding (and in a few cases succeeding).
During the month of May, you can send a specially designed Planned Parenthood vgift to your friends to help support this cause. (And if you need someone to send it to,
frank is always happy to receive gifts!) There are three variations ($1, $5 and $10) for you to choose from, but they'd all look good on your profile when your friends know that you stand by something so important.Thank you all for your help in our support for Planned Parenthood. This promotion ends June 1, 2012; LiveJournal is not affiliated with Parent Parenthood. For more information about Planned Parenthood, please visit: http://www.plannedparenthood.org/
-The LiveJournal Team
(If you'd like to help spread the word that we're raising funds for Planned Parenthood, you can crosspost this entry in your own journal or community by using the repost button below!)
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Today only
May. 8th, 2012 08:53 amJust learned about this guy and am just barely starting to get into his music, specifically 'The Letters of Dr. Kurt Gödel'. Like a lot of his lyrics... I can't say anything about longevity yet, but I would recommend trying him out.
Levi Weaver
If you scroll down, you can download all of his albums for free (without donating) so if you are like me, want to try new music all the time, but can't afford to do so, here's your chance...
Levi Weaver
If you scroll down, you can download all of his albums for free (without donating) so if you are like me, want to try new music all the time, but can't afford to do so, here's your chance...
Monster bags
Apr. 10th, 2012 10:28 amaka Creatures on a Leash. Notice the straps are all leashes. ;) Pictures really suck, but I made a gallery so you have to leave LJ for just a sec.
Lay on the self-pity.
Apr. 3rd, 2012 01:07 pmHubby's new job is "okay" as described by him. I think he was so settled in his last job (16 years of being walked on...) that he doesn't know how to NOT know every thing and everyone.
( cut because it's really just a lot of things I'm so afraid to share, I don't share it. No one really wants to hear it anyway. )
Started making these monster bags, but I can't get the pictures to upload right so I'll have to share later. They aren't as cool as they are in my head, anyway, but I can't figure out how to make them cooler. The sewing is good because I'm good at the technical part of it. It's just...something else isn't right. Pretty much how I feel about my writing and everything else I do. Awesome.
And I thought I was doing so much better. Depends on the hour you ask me, I guess.
( cut because it's really just a lot of things I'm so afraid to share, I don't share it. No one really wants to hear it anyway. )
Started making these monster bags, but I can't get the pictures to upload right so I'll have to share later. They aren't as cool as they are in my head, anyway, but I can't figure out how to make them cooler. The sewing is good because I'm good at the technical part of it. It's just...something else isn't right. Pretty much how I feel about my writing and everything else I do. Awesome.
And I thought I was doing so much better. Depends on the hour you ask me, I guess.
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Mar. 21st, 2012 09:33 pmHubby thought I needed new shoes. I can't imagine why. I just broke these in!
But now I get to wear these!! YAY!!
But now I get to wear these!! YAY!!
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Mar. 5th, 2012 09:08 pmI just want to go lie in bed and cry, but my husband doesn't know anything is wrong, I don't want him to know, and he keeps sending me requests in Words With Friends. I hate technology.
Let's start with Valentine's. It was good! Hubby bought me this cute Animal (muppets) backpack I've been eying. It's shaggy and his mouth opens and closes (not just in a puppety way, but also depending on how full I fill the pack.) Like I need more bags when I practically never carry one, but I love it.
And chocolate. Bad for my temptation. I was so going to re-do the diet part to lose instead of just maintaining my weight, but... today I don't care.
house guests
They have moved out. He has a good job. She, we are hoping, is going to have the opportunity to renew her CNA for free through this offer a local college is doing and also get her phlebotomy training so she can work opposite hours to him and then he can work less overtime. We shall see. Either way, I've done my part. They got themselves here and got themselves on their feet. Of course, in the meantime, she and I made pretty good friends so I kind of miss that bit.
What's kind of cool is they moved into the same apartment complex with my current best friend so I go visit them both one day every week or so and it's convenient.
job
I am not supposed to say this officially, but you won't tell, will you? Hubby finally got a new job!!! We're just thrilled. It's not really more money financially, but the company he has worked for these last 16 years has taken a nose dive in respectability over the last 5 which is what I think hurt him when he was seeking new job. They also kept saying he wasn't promotable, but he is more qualified for the next level of management than the level that is currently there in most cases. The last feedback he got was "We didn't feel you wanted it enough." Uhm, how does one work on that to improve their chances for a promotion next time? It made no sense and stopped making sense a long time ago. Other companies have been pretty impressed with him, but he finally got an offer from one that is very well-regarded so he's going to take it. Oh, and the benefits are a drastic improvement. While the premiums are about the same, the coverage is sooo much better and the deductibles are sooo much lower... Anyway, new job! That means a lot of changes coming...
kind of like a job
I've actually been looking for quite some time and more aggressively lately, but nothing is panning out. I'm just so mediocre that when it comes to make a choice, why me, (is what I think is the case). Anyway, I am working somewhat, though. Part time at a boutique where my sister and I are selling some goods. I figure at least it can go on a resume to show I've worked recently. Sadly, it will probably only do me good to do more retail jobs, but I wish I could find something to exercise the other parts of my brain.
webpage
New webpage I built. Proud of myself because I had to delve into javascript to make this one. It's my friend's business she's starting up. I'm also helping her make a few things. Yesterday we created fairy sun catchers so I'm going to condense hats and add a sun catchers/ wind chimes section. On the webpage is her early stuff. You should see the things she is making to add next! They are even more amazing.
telly
Right now, I am catching up on Mad Men. I knew it would be brilliant! I just didn't have time until now. Awesome. I'm also knee deep in Walking Dead. I watch several other shows, just not as intently as those right now. Oh, except Castle. I'm developing quite the obsession for Nathan Fillion. I've always known he was awesome, but he just gets better and better...
...every time I watch Dr. Horrible. I've been so obsessed with that, too. I saw it early on and a couple times since then, but I finally downloaded to my iPod at Christmas and now it's like Velvet Goldmine-time...when the tv was on, VG was going... all the time... ha ha.
Ooo, VG. Haven't watched that in about a year. Might be time to watch it, too.
Oh, the obsessions...
Speaking of telly, though, I better enjoy while we can. When hubby leaves current job, free programming ceases. I will have to watch all the goodies like Homeland and Boardwalk Empire when they get released on DVD. SADNESS! We haven't decided which package to keep, but we are going to get Netflix back. Yeah... I can't decide if that's good or bad, but it was always our thought that if he left, we would cancel all the movie channels in exchange for Netflix...
mood
It's been better, but some days still seem...less than good. Whatever. Just trying to stay busy so I don't think too hard. I get kind of annoyed when people say it's probably just my hormone levels because of that surgery I had, but that's mostly because they bring it up to then say "but me...I don't know why I'm down". Well, that's dismissive, isn't it? Mine may be related to that, I agree, but it's also not the first time I've been down in my life. Well, I'm not sure of my point. It just bothered me the two times I heard it over the last few months.
First day since the live-ins moved out that I've not had another responsibility so I think I'll take a hot bath (I dream of having a jacuzzi. Sigh) and start the book for book club.
Jury is still out on whether I like being part of a book club and a writer's club... Neither is exactly what I want them to be, but both may have aspects that are helping me socially and with my writing... I know I'll never amount to anything, but it really is the thought that drives me right now. If it wasn't for writing, I'm not sure I'd have a reason to go on.
Oh, additional nice thing about working at that boutique? I usually get the mid-day shifts during the week when it's so slow I have nothing to do except work on editing and rewriting the book i've been working on. I have no internet access so can't work on anything else that other have asked me to do so I get 3-4 hours time to just read, edit, rework, etc. I have not accomplished the goal I set in January (to complete 4 chapters a week and write in a journal), but I have accomplished more than in the preview 3 months combined...
And chocolate. Bad for my temptation. I was so going to re-do the diet part to lose instead of just maintaining my weight, but... today I don't care.
house guests
They have moved out. He has a good job. She, we are hoping, is going to have the opportunity to renew her CNA for free through this offer a local college is doing and also get her phlebotomy training so she can work opposite hours to him and then he can work less overtime. We shall see. Either way, I've done my part. They got themselves here and got themselves on their feet. Of course, in the meantime, she and I made pretty good friends so I kind of miss that bit.
What's kind of cool is they moved into the same apartment complex with my current best friend so I go visit them both one day every week or so and it's convenient.
job
I am not supposed to say this officially, but you won't tell, will you? Hubby finally got a new job!!! We're just thrilled. It's not really more money financially, but the company he has worked for these last 16 years has taken a nose dive in respectability over the last 5 which is what I think hurt him when he was seeking new job. They also kept saying he wasn't promotable, but he is more qualified for the next level of management than the level that is currently there in most cases. The last feedback he got was "We didn't feel you wanted it enough." Uhm, how does one work on that to improve their chances for a promotion next time? It made no sense and stopped making sense a long time ago. Other companies have been pretty impressed with him, but he finally got an offer from one that is very well-regarded so he's going to take it. Oh, and the benefits are a drastic improvement. While the premiums are about the same, the coverage is sooo much better and the deductibles are sooo much lower... Anyway, new job! That means a lot of changes coming...
kind of like a job
I've actually been looking for quite some time and more aggressively lately, but nothing is panning out. I'm just so mediocre that when it comes to make a choice, why me, (is what I think is the case). Anyway, I am working somewhat, though. Part time at a boutique where my sister and I are selling some goods. I figure at least it can go on a resume to show I've worked recently. Sadly, it will probably only do me good to do more retail jobs, but I wish I could find something to exercise the other parts of my brain.
webpage
New webpage I built. Proud of myself because I had to delve into javascript to make this one. It's my friend's business she's starting up. I'm also helping her make a few things. Yesterday we created fairy sun catchers so I'm going to condense hats and add a sun catchers/ wind chimes section. On the webpage is her early stuff. You should see the things she is making to add next! They are even more amazing.
telly
Right now, I am catching up on Mad Men. I knew it would be brilliant! I just didn't have time until now. Awesome. I'm also knee deep in Walking Dead. I watch several other shows, just not as intently as those right now. Oh, except Castle. I'm developing quite the obsession for Nathan Fillion. I've always known he was awesome, but he just gets better and better...
...every time I watch Dr. Horrible. I've been so obsessed with that, too. I saw it early on and a couple times since then, but I finally downloaded to my iPod at Christmas and now it's like Velvet Goldmine-time...when the tv was on, VG was going... all the time... ha ha.
Ooo, VG. Haven't watched that in about a year. Might be time to watch it, too.
Oh, the obsessions...
Speaking of telly, though, I better enjoy while we can. When hubby leaves current job, free programming ceases. I will have to watch all the goodies like Homeland and Boardwalk Empire when they get released on DVD. SADNESS! We haven't decided which package to keep, but we are going to get Netflix back. Yeah... I can't decide if that's good or bad, but it was always our thought that if he left, we would cancel all the movie channels in exchange for Netflix...
mood
It's been better, but some days still seem...less than good. Whatever. Just trying to stay busy so I don't think too hard. I get kind of annoyed when people say it's probably just my hormone levels because of that surgery I had, but that's mostly because they bring it up to then say "but me...I don't know why I'm down". Well, that's dismissive, isn't it? Mine may be related to that, I agree, but it's also not the first time I've been down in my life. Well, I'm not sure of my point. It just bothered me the two times I heard it over the last few months.
First day since the live-ins moved out that I've not had another responsibility so I think I'll take a hot bath (I dream of having a jacuzzi. Sigh) and start the book for book club.
Jury is still out on whether I like being part of a book club and a writer's club... Neither is exactly what I want them to be, but both may have aspects that are helping me socially and with my writing... I know I'll never amount to anything, but it really is the thought that drives me right now. If it wasn't for writing, I'm not sure I'd have a reason to go on.
Oh, additional nice thing about working at that boutique? I usually get the mid-day shifts during the week when it's so slow I have nothing to do except work on editing and rewriting the book i've been working on. I have no internet access so can't work on anything else that other have asked me to do so I get 3-4 hours time to just read, edit, rework, etc. I have not accomplished the goal I set in January (to complete 4 chapters a week and write in a journal), but I have accomplished more than in the preview 3 months combined...
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Dec. 28th, 2011 01:40 pmI think - think - I almost feel ready to join the human race again. It's so frustrating to not know why or how to get out of these messed up feelings, but... maybe. I'll start with my computer humans. You guys love me so there isn't much to fear. ;)
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Dec. 15th, 2011 03:57 pmLove this lady's spirit. She's definitely what I call "church" singer, (everyone at church says they are awesome and talented, but a real person would never buy their album)
The thing is, she is awesome with support and confidence which Jane needs as much as the instruction. She's bipolar and an advocate for self-confidence so it's like guitar-therapy in my eyes.
Jane's been taking lessons for 3 months... the second song she wrote herself. Not bad, imo, but I am a mom...
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Dec. 12th, 2011 12:30 pmI bought this shirt for myself. If I could afford it again, plus shipping, I would send one to each of three of you. You know who you are. Click here...
My mom is doing better. That's good.
I... typed out a whole thing of what's been bursting at the seams, but as usual it's going to stay bottled up inside. Let me just tuck it back in really quick here and...
I'm sorry for everyone and everything I'm ignoring. I just can't. Do it. Anymore. Whatever that means.
I... typed out a whole thing of what's been bursting at the seams, but as usual it's going to stay bottled up inside. Let me just tuck it back in really quick here and...
I'm sorry for everyone and everything I'm ignoring. I just can't. Do it. Anymore. Whatever that means.
Where I've been....
Nov. 7th, 2011 09:49 am...it's now so common, I'm sure no one really noticed.
Mom
Mom's health has deteriorated really fast over the last couple of months. All of us kids are concerned, but I'm the only one who has deigned to suggest she might just be "done". She's had a couple years without Dad and she's not exactly ready to go out and live the life she may have missed before.
She can't take care of her house so my sister and I have made sure all the housekeeping and yardwork have been kept up. My sister is now pregnant so I'll probably be doing a bit more. I was going to head over there early today to wash Mom's dishes, but haven't yet. I'm bad.
She has talked about getting a condo numerous times, but I am starting to think she doesn't want to move, really. She just wants to be done. Makes me sad. I know if Dad was around - like he should have because all of his siblings lived into their 90s - grrrg - I still feel a little cheated - that she would have lived at least 10 years. Her health was not excellent, but it was nowhere near alarming. Now it's alarming.
House guests - again
We have house guests again. I'm not sure what compelled me, but they were getting harrassed by some people (they almost ran over their 3 year old with a car!!) who had nothing better to do than stalk them. These are people we knew in Idaho. Well, I told them if they could get here, we could let them stay while they found jobs and just made it clear we expected them to be out within 2-3 months. They arrived Tuesday. He had a job by Thursday. Sweet! She's having a little more trouble, but getting a job doesn't always happen overnight.
Hostility
From time to time, I still harbor some hostility toward pregnant people. Not my sister, fortunately, but when my niece started talking about her pregnancy last night, I had to move tables at family dinner.
It's obvious to me that when certain things happen, perfectly normal people turn into stupid, rude fools. Like when a woman gets pregnant or someone gets a 'Smart' phone (you know I'm right!!) If they were a little dumb to begin with, they become intolerable...
Mood
I don't typically document this, but I'm sure it can be read into many posts. My moods haven't been good lately. I hate it. I feel like I have no control. I have been told to journal, but I can't. I have been told to talk to people, but I can't. I probably should expound more, but I can't.
Other blogs
Pretty proud of a post I made last night regarding adoption on blog called Wicked Crazy Awesome.. Also, I have two I do with my husband. Doubt anyone's interested, but they are out there and occasionally entertaining. You can find all of them from webpage hubby and I are putting together. Well, I am putting it together, but it's our IdeaChild. I need a kickass pineapple picture to put in place of the weird spotted stone which is currently there, but photoshop isn't working and I can't get my brain around photoimpact which my sister gave to me.
I know I need to find a way to intergrate everything togeher because 4 blogs is stupid...
Mom
Mom's health has deteriorated really fast over the last couple of months. All of us kids are concerned, but I'm the only one who has deigned to suggest she might just be "done". She's had a couple years without Dad and she's not exactly ready to go out and live the life she may have missed before.
She can't take care of her house so my sister and I have made sure all the housekeeping and yardwork have been kept up. My sister is now pregnant so I'll probably be doing a bit more. I was going to head over there early today to wash Mom's dishes, but haven't yet. I'm bad.
She has talked about getting a condo numerous times, but I am starting to think she doesn't want to move, really. She just wants to be done. Makes me sad. I know if Dad was around - like he should have because all of his siblings lived into their 90s - grrrg - I still feel a little cheated - that she would have lived at least 10 years. Her health was not excellent, but it was nowhere near alarming. Now it's alarming.
House guests - again
We have house guests again. I'm not sure what compelled me, but they were getting harrassed by some people (they almost ran over their 3 year old with a car!!) who had nothing better to do than stalk them. These are people we knew in Idaho. Well, I told them if they could get here, we could let them stay while they found jobs and just made it clear we expected them to be out within 2-3 months. They arrived Tuesday. He had a job by Thursday. Sweet! She's having a little more trouble, but getting a job doesn't always happen overnight.
Hostility
From time to time, I still harbor some hostility toward pregnant people. Not my sister, fortunately, but when my niece started talking about her pregnancy last night, I had to move tables at family dinner.
It's obvious to me that when certain things happen, perfectly normal people turn into stupid, rude fools. Like when a woman gets pregnant or someone gets a 'Smart' phone (you know I'm right!!) If they were a little dumb to begin with, they become intolerable...
Mood
I don't typically document this, but I'm sure it can be read into many posts. My moods haven't been good lately. I hate it. I feel like I have no control. I have been told to journal, but I can't. I have been told to talk to people, but I can't. I probably should expound more, but I can't.
Other blogs
Pretty proud of a post I made last night regarding adoption on blog called Wicked Crazy Awesome.. Also, I have two I do with my husband. Doubt anyone's interested, but they are out there and occasionally entertaining. You can find all of them from webpage hubby and I are putting together. Well, I am putting it together, but it's our IdeaChild. I need a kickass pineapple picture to put in place of the weird spotted stone which is currently there, but photoshop isn't working and I can't get my brain around photoimpact which my sister gave to me.
I know I need to find a way to intergrate everything togeher because 4 blogs is stupid...
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Nov. 1st, 2011 11:42 amFirst day of Nano. Awesome. Guess I'm not even going to try seeing as how I remembered it five minutes ago. ha ha.
I do intend to get other writing and editing done though... I must commit!
I do intend to get other writing and editing done though... I must commit!
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Oct. 7th, 2011 10:11 amJust when you feel like things are finally getting better, you find yourself fight back tears over Pumpkin Pancakes at IHOP.
Internet sorrows
Aug. 30th, 2011 09:00 pmInternet has been either spotty or down for a week. I missed a lot. Bummer.
Did a puzzle, though, that was given to me for my recovery period. Awesome at the time because I didn't realize that sitting crunched up would be most painful until I heeled. Puzzle was a bitch to do. Fun, but also a pain!
Jane started new school. She loves it. Better opportunities, too. Nice.
Been working on some editing and writing. Nothing terribly useful, but hey. At least there's stuff going on with my creative bone.
Invented a new cupcake. Pretty tasty. I need to get the rest out before the calories show up on my hips. Been losing weight again, but WAY slow... temptation is hard to resist these days and pain makes me crave naughty foods. Lime. I may have to post recipes.
Joined a book club. Seemed nice and stable, but now they want to read The Hunger Games trilogy. Save the commentary on how great it is. I don't want to read it. I hate reading things right in the midst of its popularity because all I ever see is the suck. It ruins it for me. Besides, it's all post apocolyptic stuff which is one of my least favourite story ideas. Is it bad to skip the second month after joining? Waaaa.
Also joined a writing group, but it's really more of a "self-publishing" group and they talk about the rare cases where people actually make money off of eBooks than about anything useful like writing.
Did a puzzle, though, that was given to me for my recovery period. Awesome at the time because I didn't realize that sitting crunched up would be most painful until I heeled. Puzzle was a bitch to do. Fun, but also a pain!
Jane started new school. She loves it. Better opportunities, too. Nice.
Been working on some editing and writing. Nothing terribly useful, but hey. At least there's stuff going on with my creative bone.
Invented a new cupcake. Pretty tasty. I need to get the rest out before the calories show up on my hips. Been losing weight again, but WAY slow... temptation is hard to resist these days and pain makes me crave naughty foods. Lime. I may have to post recipes.
Joined a book club. Seemed nice and stable, but now they want to read The Hunger Games trilogy. Save the commentary on how great it is. I don't want to read it. I hate reading things right in the midst of its popularity because all I ever see is the suck. It ruins it for me. Besides, it's all post apocolyptic stuff which is one of my least favourite story ideas. Is it bad to skip the second month after joining? Waaaa.
Also joined a writing group, but it's really more of a "self-publishing" group and they talk about the rare cases where people actually make money off of eBooks than about anything useful like writing.
