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At the risk of this becoming "ramblings of a pathetic self-loather"...

I haven't updated much recently. I forget a lot. I also realized that the last few entries were "poor me" entries which I rather hate.

I am definitely in a self-loathing "you're so pathetic" phase and having a hard time shaking it. Funny how one can 'know' that they're kind of smart or slightly talented in their head but still feel stupid and much like a loser on the outside. I hate me right now. Hate myself when I'm like this. Despite what some people seem to think, it's not always something you can simply just change, though...