Update

Dad is in the hospital again. I haven't said that much here lately and even when I did I was sort of dressing things up. How to simply say "It's bad" without it looking like I'm just looking for sympathy or something?

Anyway, if I'm sort of inside my own world, dismissive, or non responsive for a while, that's just how I deal with stress sometimes. Am okay, though. Thinking positively to keep sane.