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I just started a really long post. Well, it wasn't going to be that long, but it kept getting longer until I just couldn't post it anymore for various reasons.

But you know, I just feel so confused by myself sometimes. I feel trapped and free at the same time. I long for things I'll never have and hide things I probably shouldn't. It's all so fucking complicated and I just... I don't want to do it anymore.