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Dreaming comes so easily..
Oct. 22nd, 2002 09:19 am'Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so how would I know
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
...Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know
There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear... -Plumb
Doesn't mean anything. Just a song stuck in my head.
Stuck there because of the dreaming part. Between Friday and today I had 3 dreams about Curt and Ray. Dammit. I thought they were gone. I rather hoped they would go away, but no. They're still there, telling me stories.
Of course, I also dreamt 3 times in one night that I was going on vacation the next day and that's why I was having trouble sleeping, but I was asleep while dreaming that so who knows?
Look, I do remember *some* dreams. Most of them just aren't worth discussing.
So now I debate. Do I write what Curt and Ray are asking or do I get on with my life? Will the let me?
Love my hubby. He works at a job where he gets tons of promotional items. Several months ago he got a really nice pen that lights up. No, not one of those silly light up pens. It's high quality with blue neon.
Why is this an issue? Because he gave it to me and I recently learned that it's fabuilous for 4 am revelations. I can make notes without waking myself too much and without disturbing him at all. Nice.
Last night's 4am revelation - came at 2:43 am. It absolutely refused to let me sleep until I wrote it down. Someone tell me what the hells this means!
Sweet on the inside
flower blossom
blossoms.
Sour on the outside
blood red.
Huh? Yeah, that's what I said when I read it this morning. {shrug}
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so how would I know
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
...Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know
There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear... -Plumb
Doesn't mean anything. Just a song stuck in my head.
Stuck there because of the dreaming part. Between Friday and today I had 3 dreams about Curt and Ray. Dammit. I thought they were gone. I rather hoped they would go away, but no. They're still there, telling me stories.
Of course, I also dreamt 3 times in one night that I was going on vacation the next day and that's why I was having trouble sleeping, but I was asleep while dreaming that so who knows?
Look, I do remember *some* dreams. Most of them just aren't worth discussing.
So now I debate. Do I write what Curt and Ray are asking or do I get on with my life? Will the let me?
Love my hubby. He works at a job where he gets tons of promotional items. Several months ago he got a really nice pen that lights up. No, not one of those silly light up pens. It's high quality with blue neon.
Why is this an issue? Because he gave it to me and I recently learned that it's fabuilous for 4 am revelations. I can make notes without waking myself too much and without disturbing him at all. Nice.
Last night's 4am revelation - came at 2:43 am. It absolutely refused to let me sleep until I wrote it down. Someone tell me what the hells this means!
Sweet on the inside
flower blossom
blossoms.
Sour on the outside
blood red.
Huh? Yeah, that's what I said when I read it this morning. {shrug}
