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snoweeI'm feeling a little... rejected at the moment. I can't really say what's wrong, but sort of need to write about it. Don't really know how.
Sometimes I will say something or do something and then one person will say or do something that sort of counteracts or contradicts it which is fine. I don't mind a disagreement. It's just that sometimes, then, more people will say or do things on the same subject and while each of them mean in it innocence or whatever it really makes me kind of angry because in their little way they are not realizing that they are ganging up on me. Nothing is worse than that.
I have been through something like an intervention twice in my life and both times I came out traumatized - feeling more like everyone is ganging up on me than they are trying to help. Even after these years of clarity, I am extremely skittish. I bet everyone can think of one time they felt ganged up on. It's just... hurtful.
And I know in this recent case that no one intended it, but I'm still feeling kind of... rejected.
Sometimes I will say something or do something and then one person will say or do something that sort of counteracts or contradicts it which is fine. I don't mind a disagreement. It's just that sometimes, then, more people will say or do things on the same subject and while each of them mean in it innocence or whatever it really makes me kind of angry because in their little way they are not realizing that they are ganging up on me. Nothing is worse than that.
I have been through something like an intervention twice in my life and both times I came out traumatized - feeling more like everyone is ganging up on me than they are trying to help. Even after these years of clarity, I am extremely skittish. I bet everyone can think of one time they felt ganged up on. It's just... hurtful.
And I know in this recent case that no one intended it, but I'm still feeling kind of... rejected.
