![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Why am I here?
That's it. I'm finished. I'm frustrated. I'm angry. Dunno why I'm even thinking about it when there are no voices, bunnies, or muses to be seen, heard, or (it feels like I need a third here) tasted. I want to write something. I need the escape and I feel something boiling in me dying to come out, but there's no outlet.
And I write too much fanfic. I almost forgot that I ever wrote anything original. That's fucked up. I still remember the days when my original works outnumbered the fanfic. Now I look at my text disk and think I'd have to count them to see which has more.
Besides, I haven't bothered to fix up and post a single original thing in months. So voices? You know who you are. Those of you who are thinking about speaking but haven't yet? Shut up. Go away. My next story will be original. I don't care if it's long or short, evil or fluffy, that's it. I've forgotten how to create an original character and I... hate it.
So, yeah, I'm grumpy. Hell yeah. I lost the writer I was in television and movie stories that I excused as practice.
And now I'm not sure I can do it anymore. I fear that's why they're quiet and that's why I'm staring at the monitor feeling... empty.
And I write too much fanfic. I almost forgot that I ever wrote anything original. That's fucked up. I still remember the days when my original works outnumbered the fanfic. Now I look at my text disk and think I'd have to count them to see which has more.
Besides, I haven't bothered to fix up and post a single original thing in months. So voices? You know who you are. Those of you who are thinking about speaking but haven't yet? Shut up. Go away. My next story will be original. I don't care if it's long or short, evil or fluffy, that's it. I've forgotten how to create an original character and I... hate it.
So, yeah, I'm grumpy. Hell yeah. I lost the writer I was in television and movie stories that I excused as practice.
And now I'm not sure I can do it anymore. I fear that's why they're quiet and that's why I'm staring at the monitor feeling... empty.