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I FEEL USED!
Update on the situation. I asked her if she was just looking for a nice way of getting out of our friendship.
"I haven't decided yet. I was going to wait til after the accident. I
already know how to write you out I just haven't decided if I'm going to."
SHE WAS USING ME! Ok, this makes no sense to ya'll so I'll explain. I came up with an idea for a big accident in Northville. Well, when I presented it to her, she figured out how it could be a big useful drama for her and I went along with it because it didn't matter. I was getting my end out of it either way. Now it appears from that statement that she's been hanging on to our friendship for the clear and simple acknowledgement that the accident was my idea and she still wanted to use it... so stay my friend long enough that I don't come after her for stealing my idea and then she's done with me? Because the paragraph where I asked her about our friendship was about our friendship with one tiny comment about Northville and her response was totally about Northville!
Like, ok, I get that we're on the outs, but now I wonder how long she's been using me for Northville because if I want to be paranoid about it, it could be from DAY ONE! If I wanted to, I could see everything as just her tolerance for me so she could use my ideas and characters.
Fuckin'...{grumble, snarl, expletives deleted} How fucking pathetic am I to let myself get used like that!? What the fuck!? I'm usually smarter than that {no I'm not} but really, really fucking, how...seriously! How dumb do I look admitting that I was getting used and it took me until today to get that there was ALL using when I thought it was only PARTLY using and it didn't matter. I didn't let it matter because I was too nice to say fuck off the first time I knew something was amiss.
Fucking pathetic. Fucking... beyond fucking pathetic. Oh my God. {Thwacking head repeatedly with nearest hardback}
Edit: So I told her after that comment that I'd make it really easy on her. I wasn't going to stick around just so she could use me. She responded "I shouldn't have expected less from you." What!?
btw, hon, thanks for giving me incentive to not do A FUCKING THING toward returning your fabric and patterns. Go ahead. SUE ME!
{hopping mad now}
"I haven't decided yet. I was going to wait til after the accident. I
already know how to write you out I just haven't decided if I'm going to."
SHE WAS USING ME! Ok, this makes no sense to ya'll so I'll explain. I came up with an idea for a big accident in Northville. Well, when I presented it to her, she figured out how it could be a big useful drama for her and I went along with it because it didn't matter. I was getting my end out of it either way. Now it appears from that statement that she's been hanging on to our friendship for the clear and simple acknowledgement that the accident was my idea and she still wanted to use it... so stay my friend long enough that I don't come after her for stealing my idea and then she's done with me? Because the paragraph where I asked her about our friendship was about our friendship with one tiny comment about Northville and her response was totally about Northville!
Like, ok, I get that we're on the outs, but now I wonder how long she's been using me for Northville because if I want to be paranoid about it, it could be from DAY ONE! If I wanted to, I could see everything as just her tolerance for me so she could use my ideas and characters.
Fuckin'...{grumble, snarl, expletives deleted} How fucking pathetic am I to let myself get used like that!? What the fuck!? I'm usually smarter than that {no I'm not} but really, really fucking, how...seriously! How dumb do I look admitting that I was getting used and it took me until today to get that there was ALL using when I thought it was only PARTLY using and it didn't matter. I didn't let it matter because I was too nice to say fuck off the first time I knew something was amiss.
Fucking pathetic. Fucking... beyond fucking pathetic. Oh my God. {Thwacking head repeatedly with nearest hardback}
Edit: So I told her after that comment that I'd make it really easy on her. I wasn't going to stick around just so she could use me. She responded "I shouldn't have expected less from you." What!?
btw, hon, thanks for giving me incentive to not do A FUCKING THING toward returning your fabric and patterns. Go ahead. SUE ME!
{hopping mad now}